Healthcare

Dear selfish politicians who only think about votes and getting re-elected...

I have a disease, I work because I need good health care...

Doing that makes me feel worse.

Please stop being so selfish and think about the people you are paid to represent...

pass healthcare for your population, a sick nation is not a productive one.

Research Development

The last few weeks have been slightly rough. School and work have not worked out well due to the fact that I am attempting on some days to go to school all day and then pull an eight hour shift until 11 pm and not making it home until almost midnight...and being away from home for 14 hours out of the day is not fun at all. I have to study at school, sit at school more hours than I would like and then jaunt off to work for a long shift...and I miss my house, my husband, and the comfort of being somewhere personal. It is not easy, but... I can do this, I can finish.

On a more positive educational front, I am starting to really get into the senior project I am working on currently regarding Colonial charter development in the 16th, 17th and early 18th centuries. While the research is in the beginning phases to say the least, I am thoroughly happy with what I have found thus far and find myself falling more and more in love with the dynamics of charters and how they dictate what can and cannot be done in a British colonial settlement. Perhaps here, I will slowly update through the process and what I find, if anyone reads this blasted thing anyway lol.

Right now...

I am focusing on the 1584 Charter awarded to Sir Humfrey Gilbert by the crown to explore outside the bounds of the realm of England, the charter is very vague and gives Gilbert a great deal of birth and power in his expeditions... it is amazing how much was given to the early explorers and how finite such allowances become by the time entire Royal colonies are created in the late 17th and early 18th centuries.

I've been feeling sickly the last few days and I really don't want my facebook or my conversation to be centered around me feeling like crap, even if I do. A combination of working some pretty grueling shifts which include all physical style labor (ive been doing returns which consists of boxing up 40lb boxes of books we send back to the publisher, taping them up, and picking them up one at a time and hauling them to the area where they are stored for 8 hours), school being back in session and learning to cope with days where I go to class at 930 to 12:15 and then go work until 11 PM some days and then go to class half the afternoon on others, as well as attempting to do Tae Kwon Do (Which is totally my choice) for some exercise... I feel like total ass. But... I feel so guilty because so what, I feel like ass and yet there are people with no homes and no food and dying on the street somewhere and im whining because my stupid ass disease is acting up a bit.

But...

its how I feel.

Im really frustrated because I take my shots...but I refuse to take the other crap that makes me sick...

I WILL NOT take methotrexate again....that stuff is disgusting and it makes me so unhappy, sick...losing my hair...im only 33...

I dont want to take my pain pills, they make me sick to my stomach but, its 3 am and im sitting on the couch miserable because I hurt, I cant sleep, and I dont want to get in the bed, toss and turn and wake up Adam crying like I have twice this week.

Bleh...

This is stupid and I feel even more stupid for having my own personal pity party.

School is Back...

I feel like school is hating on me for being away for a few weeks by piling up homework I have no way to finish.

Lets see...

Three Chapters for Modern Europe

8 pages of work for French

a Chapter and some research for Burson

and starting on a book I have a review due for in two weeks for Zim...

did I mention all my classes have only met once.

YES SCHOOL!

I know it will be worth it, I know many have it worse, Im just feeling a bit overwhelmed as usual.