Pic of the Day

This little gem was taken at the American Museum of Natural History because Adam loves rhinos and the museum has an amazing array of animal depictions.  so I had to take it, thus my new pic of the day.

A New Feature

Im going to daily post a pic from NY (if I remember)

This is from Starry Night...yea THE Starry Night

It was amazing to see this picture so close, I loved it.  I had to push my way through but eventually I got up this close and took the pictures of the texture... Van Gough, right in front of me.
Amazing.

I am thinking about some pretty good things right now as there are things in the world trying to bring me down, this made me smile.

:(

I dont have anything to say.

NYC

I am not a world traveler by any means, but having the opportunity to go to New York was one of the coolest things I've ever done. Adam and I enjoyed every moment from the eclectic traffic of people surrounding you at all times to the windows that pass you by, rides on the subway, walks to Central Park, plays, and museums....food...fun...just the amazing atmosphere of the city.

I have filled over 13 gig of photos, not wanting to forget any moment...

It is a trip I will forever cherish and the most awesome trip of my life.

Finally...

This winter has been a plague on my system. The constant cold and wet has combined with the normal symptoms of my disease to wreak complete havoc and leave me sick and in pain most of the time. On top of that, a strange work schedule and a new daunting semester has combined in making what is already hard, harder. It can be daunting to try to do everything as well as maintain some sanity and the impact of the winter ended up in me having to take more medication (upped dosage of my anti-inflamatory, steroids, and my regular regiment which includes a weekly shot) and working less...doing less. Even with doing that, I feel sick a lot, I hurt a lot and it can get the best of you...leaving you listless and depressed which right now, I am.

On top of that, I have one teacher this semester who is giving me a hard time about missing class, which I honestly cannot help. I have done everything I can...brought doctors excuses, done extra labs, went and extensively explained my situation, and she still wants to give me a hard time so I went to the learning support department and received word today that my letters of accommodation have come in and I can give them to her, basically officially explaining from the school that I have a disease and that I cannot help it.

To me, this is a big deal, because now I do not have to worry if I cannot make it.

Annoyed

It is hard to let someone have an opinion when it feels wrong. I'm stubborn, more stubborn than anyone I know and while I understand everyone is entitled to an opinion, some opinions are just bad.

My school newspaper is called The Macon Statement. It is a small publication, but it gets around the school. The front inside page of the paper is reserved for editorial space and today a Rev. Fuller wrote a piece about homosexuals. While proclaiming that Homosexuals were people too and we need to love the "person" not the "act"... he also said he believed that homosexuals were biologically homosexual and that not all biological tendencies are good and homosexuals should know theirs is wrong and just not do it. He compared homosexuals to pedophiles and those who partake in beastiality and that...deeply offended me. His evidence for how wrong homosexuals was the simplistic "When the bible speaks of homosexual acts, it condemns them." and that was it...

In all truth, you may not like what a person does...but I tell you this, I have a hard time thinking that a person is lost from God just because they love someone of the same gender... to be perfectly honest... I think God has much more important things to worry about than if a man's sexual partner is another man.

I could, poke enormous holes in this guy's article sure enough... like the biological claim... if homosexuality is biological, if a person has a natural tendency to be attracted to the same sex... then if you are a Christian, do you not believe that God made humans, made them completely and if God naturally placed a proclivity for the same sex in some people, is that somehow a mistake on God's part? I don't think so...

Also... comparing someone who wants to have any sort of relations sexual or otherwise with a consenting adult of the same gender to someone who forces themselves sexually on a child or an animal... is just irresponsible, disrespectful, and a blatant attempt to turn someone's life choice into simple depraved degeneration...

I just don't understand why some try so very hard to completely demean someone just because they are different.

Healthcare

Dear selfish politicians who only think about votes and getting re-elected...

I have a disease, I work because I need good health care...

Doing that makes me feel worse.

Please stop being so selfish and think about the people you are paid to represent...

pass healthcare for your population, a sick nation is not a productive one.

Research Development

The last few weeks have been slightly rough. School and work have not worked out well due to the fact that I am attempting on some days to go to school all day and then pull an eight hour shift until 11 pm and not making it home until almost midnight...and being away from home for 14 hours out of the day is not fun at all. I have to study at school, sit at school more hours than I would like and then jaunt off to work for a long shift...and I miss my house, my husband, and the comfort of being somewhere personal. It is not easy, but... I can do this, I can finish.

On a more positive educational front, I am starting to really get into the senior project I am working on currently regarding Colonial charter development in the 16th, 17th and early 18th centuries. While the research is in the beginning phases to say the least, I am thoroughly happy with what I have found thus far and find myself falling more and more in love with the dynamics of charters and how they dictate what can and cannot be done in a British colonial settlement. Perhaps here, I will slowly update through the process and what I find, if anyone reads this blasted thing anyway lol.

Right now...

I am focusing on the 1584 Charter awarded to Sir Humfrey Gilbert by the crown to explore outside the bounds of the realm of England, the charter is very vague and gives Gilbert a great deal of birth and power in his expeditions... it is amazing how much was given to the early explorers and how finite such allowances become by the time entire Royal colonies are created in the late 17th and early 18th centuries.

I've been feeling sickly the last few days and I really don't want my facebook or my conversation to be centered around me feeling like crap, even if I do. A combination of working some pretty grueling shifts which include all physical style labor (ive been doing returns which consists of boxing up 40lb boxes of books we send back to the publisher, taping them up, and picking them up one at a time and hauling them to the area where they are stored for 8 hours), school being back in session and learning to cope with days where I go to class at 930 to 12:15 and then go work until 11 PM some days and then go to class half the afternoon on others, as well as attempting to do Tae Kwon Do (Which is totally my choice) for some exercise... I feel like total ass. But... I feel so guilty because so what, I feel like ass and yet there are people with no homes and no food and dying on the street somewhere and im whining because my stupid ass disease is acting up a bit.

But...

its how I feel.

Im really frustrated because I take my shots...but I refuse to take the other crap that makes me sick...

I WILL NOT take methotrexate again....that stuff is disgusting and it makes me so unhappy, sick...losing my hair...im only 33...

I dont want to take my pain pills, they make me sick to my stomach but, its 3 am and im sitting on the couch miserable because I hurt, I cant sleep, and I dont want to get in the bed, toss and turn and wake up Adam crying like I have twice this week.

Bleh...

This is stupid and I feel even more stupid for having my own personal pity party.

School is Back...

I feel like school is hating on me for being away for a few weeks by piling up homework I have no way to finish.

Lets see...

Three Chapters for Modern Europe

8 pages of work for French

a Chapter and some research for Burson

and starting on a book I have a review due for in two weeks for Zim...

did I mention all my classes have only met once.

YES SCHOOL!

I know it will be worth it, I know many have it worse, Im just feeling a bit overwhelmed as usual.