Poem

A blunt blow to the head
stark and forceful
drilling into my temple
the deepest shade of red
ill humors escape
or do they
my blue eyes seem clouded
pale
distant
corpse like
there is a ringing
oddly shrill and unsettling
my vision is blurred
and I cannot hear the words
you whisper
it is cold in this place
deep blues and darkened purples
swimming in a shadowed sea
of gray
im numb

:(

I am so tired of being sick all the time.
That is all.

Photos Moving

This page will no longer be a photo dump, I have created a photo blog for photos...
http://fariequeenesphotos.blogspot.com/

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Starstruck

One of the most exciting things I did in New York involved going to see a show on Broadway.  Adam (because he is awesome) endured the pain of a musical and took me to see Phantom of the Opera (which was amazing).  I had to snag a pic of the street sign.

Rainforest

I have the windows open tonight as the cool spring breeze comes in my windows and I work on schoolwork on the couch.  I've been sick all day, it hasn't been a great day.  I had a few people aggravated at me because I won an award...it was odd, I didn't do anything, I didn't ask for an award and they were angry at me because I won it, so I tried to get my mind off of that and onto something else.
I heard the buzzing of the bugs outside and I thought about the Coqui frog in Puerto Rico.  This frog has a very distinct sound and you can only find it in Puerto Rico.  When you stood out on the balcony at night, you just listened to a symphony of sounds with the waves of the ocean behind you, the rustling of the wind through the vast trees in the mountains surrounding you...bird, bugs, and the Coqui frog.
I grew to love that sound.
My favorite thing I did in Puerto Rico was go to that rainforst and despite stupid diseases and pain, climb a mountain in a rainforest.
Click here to listen to the frog.

Oldie but a goodie

As this has become a photo blog, which I am totally awesomely cool about (with the occasional angry rant...I cant help it)  I am going to add some of my older stuff, like the photos I took in Puerto Rico last year.

What I love about this is the multiple elements.  The photograph was taken at the Fort in old San Juan, Puerto Rico the day after the country's biggest gas refinery explosions on the coast.  So...beyond the walls of the 4 century old fort, the 19th century buildings of Old San Juan, and the parking decks of the modern era...past the mountains and the telephone lines, there is this huge fire seemingly attacking the sky...and the small Puerto Rican flag in the center, it was an insane day.

Frustration

     Perhaps it is stupid to believe that people can think rationally in this day and age.  We are so insistent on joining a team, having a side, that we forget points, ideals, truths, and beliefs in order to remain on the side we are comfortable on.  Politics is no longer about what you believe is right for your country...but if you are in a red or a blue state, democrat or republican, conservative or liberal...its not about whats good for the country, whats right for the people, or just having an opinion.  Too many people get caught up in the sides that they forget what on earth they dont like about the other side in the first place.
I think the generation of my discontent or disillusionment with politics as a whole comes with the fact that daily I get called an American hating communist.  It infuriates me.  I love my country, I just have a different view than some on how that country should prosper and what our constitution says.  



Section 8 - Powers of Congress
The Congress shall have Power To lay and collect Taxes, Duties, Imposts and Excises, to pay the Debts and provide for the common Defence and general Welfare of the United States; but all Duties, Imposts and Excises shall be uniform throughout the United States;


I don't think reading that and believing that when it says providing for the general welfare of our country that means...ensuring that people when they are dying can get medical care and not have to pay 2 thousand dollars a month for medications to keep them healthy...is wrong.
And even if it is against what someone else believes, I dont think that makes me some sort of Nazi or Communist because those are strong labels and without understanding fully those definitions in context...saying that about someone just because they believe in some sense of social responsibility is wrong.
And its not just that...
politics is not the only arena lately where stuff like this is permeating...
I work with at least two people who boast about how much of a Christian they are, but call Obama the anti-christ, a socialist, Hitler, a Muslim, condemn homosexuals, call me a communist, call me a heathen, and worse just because I don't agree with them.  They talk about how its not their job to pay for lazy people when dealing with healthcare and then I wonder who on earth they think they worship on a daily basis as Christians...
It infuriates me because regardless of how my viewpoints may differ, I cant fathom watching people suffer, I cant fathom telling a gay person they are bad people just because who they deem to love, and I cannot for the life of me understand how it is ok to strive to live under the tenants of a person who loved everyone and accepted everyone and call anyone they disagree with nasty names and label them.
I think, and I will always think that I see more of this negative sentiment because of where I live but...its hard to sit in the midst of so much ignorance, intolerance, and racism and not attempt to fight back.

Statues

I loved all of the greek and roman statues we got to see at the Met, this is one of the millions of pictures I took of them.  :)

More Pics

The New York Public Library

This is the famous lion at the NYPL, I was enthralled.

And of course, I had to get my picture with one, duh.  I am a book nerd.


The coolest thing about the Library actually was the exhibit they had on old maps of the area and the Voltaire exhibit which had the original manuscript of Candide.

The city at night was awesome, and I liked walking around in the midst of all of it.
Much more fun than watching a movie in black and white that is cheesy.